I'm not good with Goodbye...

Been up most of the night because cramps and lower back pain. The spotting has turn to light bleeding, so I know deep down this is it, but i'm still hanging on to that little bit of hope. I broke down and started crying to my fiance because this has been such a long painful road for it to just end like this. What sucks the most is I still have symptoms, mainly morning sickness. I don't want to suffer with sore boobs and puking my guts out for nothing. I already loved this baby as much as I do Ava, and its hard to accept that this may not work out. I'm not good with Goodbyes. I keep telling myself I am so blessed to have Ava and she needs me. I am young yet, there is still plenty of time to try for another.Easier said than done I guess. I'll update after my Drs appt, but don't expect it to be good news.