Baby Appt today

I have an appt with my ob today at 3:20. I am hoping everything goes great. I am 6 weeks today according to O. I still do not have a set due date because i was too early on my last ultrasound. My next ultrasound is next wednesday at 7w2d. i can not wait! i just want to know baby is okay and the heart is beating away. i am itching to buy pregnancy books and breastfeeding books but i don't want to get them and have them laying around the house if i miscarry. I am still very on edge since the bleeding episode i had last week. Anyway, I will update once I get home from my appt. wish me luck!

i have not been updating

i am sorry that i have not been updating. it has been a roller coaster the last few weeks. As you all probably know, I am a full time mom to a 2 year old, i go to school full time for nursing, and I am planning my wedding which is less than a month away! how crazy am i?! with everything going on it is so hard for me to remember to blog as much as i would like to.

So anyways, down to business, I am 5 weeks 5 days, woot! I made it over the hump and am much more relaxed now. I miscarried at 5w 3d and was dreading it. At 5w 1d this prengnacy I started to have brown spotting, and it was quite a bit, and even that evening I had a huge gush of red bleeding and just knew i had to be miscarrying again. I had a beta done the next morning and it came back at 15,000 up from 8,800 on monday, so that is VERY good. the spotting continues wednesday and by thursday it was gone and now i have none at all. I feel great actually. I am on progesterone 200 mg once a day until 12 weeks. Um, let's see what else to report..OH! I have an ultrasound coming up on september 5th, so about a week and half! can't wait! hope we get to see a little heart beat. we are taking our daughter with us so we can see the baby together as a family. I also have an appointment coming up this monday with my obgyn for blood work, exam and pap....lucky me! Well, that is all i can think of that has been going on since my last post, but before I go I will list my symptoms and cravings.

Week 5
Symptoms:
Sore Boobs, Puffy swollen nipples, gas, mild cramps here and there.
Cravings:
Shrimp, crabs, alfredo sauce, and anythings with pasta, and CHEESE

Results are in!!!

So first off let me say I am so over the moon at my results. Beta #1 was 29 on 8/10 and Beta #2 was 917 on 8/15. That is doubling time of 24.08 hours. That is really really good!I just can't express how happy i am right now! To have such a traumatizing miscarriage little over a month ago and now I am celebrating and thanking my angel for giving me another chance. I will continue to take things slowly and not overdue myself until I am well into my 2nd trimester.

On another note: I was having problems with my current OBGYN practice. They take their time calling you back and I did not like the nurses. I just could not shake the bad feelings I called a practice called "May-Grant OBGYN" in Lancaster, Pa. It's about 35 mins away but they deliver at Lancaster general which is where my Gastric Bypass surgeon is at. This being said, they will work with him on my care. Not to mention when I called they could not get me in for an appt right away so the front desk transferred me to their nurses line because they work with the doctors and can make exceptions for appts. First off, let me say, the nurse I spoke to was amazing! She talked to me for over 40 mins and answered all my questions. She even fought with my old obgyn office to get my records sent right away (they said it would take 2 weeks). She made sure I was very welcomed and was able to squeeze me in for appt on monday. I just had the warm fuzzy feeling when I was speaking to her. She saw me as an expecting mother, not just a number on my patient files. I think the best thing of all is they have 24/7 triage nurses available. That means, whenever and whatever i need to call for, I will always talk to a person not a machine. I just LOVE that i made the switch. I hope everything continues to go smoothly.

Beta #2..awaiting results

I went today and had my 2nd beta drawn. I did not want to wait a whole week so i called my dr and told him i need at least one more so i can put my mind at ease so he agreed. I should get the results tomorrow! i can not wait! i took my last clear blue digital that i had and the line was soo dark when i tore it apart. So here's to hopign tomorrow brings good news!!!

Results are in

So the results for Beta #1 are in and it is 29. Not really what I hoped for...it seemed low because my tests were pretty dark. I am not worried out of my mind! I am thinking that I was about 10 dpo when blood was drawn so 29 would be a good number. The Dr wants me to keep repeating beta every friday until my levels are high enough to have an ultrasound. I think weekly is insane to be honest. I think I should have at least one more to make sure my levels are increasing this week before we jump to every week. My midwife is on vacation, and his nurse is in the office tomorrow, So I am calling tomorrow to ask for another beta. I just can not wait until next monday to know if this bean is sticking around or not.

On another note..I am so sick! My nose is stuffed up, my chest is clogged, and my throat is on fire. I feel like CRAP! My poor daughter is sick as well, and i think she gave it to me. Since I can't really take anything I bought some throat lodgers, vicks rub, and vick shower tabs! hoping between all that and the humidifier i will be able to breathe again soon.

Okay so It's been awhile!

So, It's been a few weeks since I've posted. I just been super busy. We took a trip to WV for a week to see my Fiance's family, then I had a ton to do with the upcoming wedding and just forgot to post! So, since I've been gone we found out that we are now expecting again!! woohoo! Here's some pictures!!!!

My ClearBlue I took after I got my + wondfo!

These are my progression tests from 8/8/12-8/11/12.

my most recent FRER on 8/11/12 FMU:

So...the story behind these! This has been a crazy month. I had my miscarriage on July 10th and bleed for 7 days...I counted that date as cd 1. After it all stopped I started using OPK and charting BD. I got my first +opk on cd 14 and BD in the window. Then stopped opk and on July 29th I felt like I was Oing. My ovaries were sore and had ewcm. Since we were still on family vacation in WV I could not test until the 30th and got a +opk again. VERY positive. So I was freaking out because We haven't BD in a few days since I thought I already O'd. We BD right away and the next day. I started testing with HPT on Aug 3rd because AF should of been here by Aug 5th. All were NEGATIVE. Ugh! No signs of AF so I just kept testing and swore I was seeing a line on Dollar store tests the whole time but I knew I was crazy. I kept thinking, may be if I stare at the test long enough it'll turn positive! LOL yeah right! Anyways I tested one last time on August 7th and still BFN. So I gave up, said what the heck, I'll just get myself prepared for next cycle. I ordered my usual OPK and HPT wondfos from amazon and was not expecting them to come in for a week. Well the next afternoon they arrived! Oh, man! I of course had to instantly pee on one. The whole time I was waiting, I was wishing they never showed up because now I am goign to waste them! Well I glanced down after about 3-4 mins picked the test up to toss it in the trash and a line caught my eye! I sat it back down and focused my eyes, and Holy Moly! There it was. That pretty pink line staring back at me!!! I took 2 more right away and all positive! I packed up DD ran to walmart and got some FRER and Digitals. Took a CB digital and took less than a minute to pop up "PREGNANT"! I am so freaking excited that it happen to quick! I was expecting it to take a year or more! I jsut went to my DR office on friday (8/10) to have my first beta drawn! I get the results tomorrow and I will update!!! I have my first prenantal appts on August 21st and 23rd! Let's just hope this baby STICKS! I am due somewhere between April 16th and April 22nd. I guess I'll know when I get my u/s.

Spaghetti with a twist

So, I am no chief by any means, but I am a pretty decent cook. I usually make recipes I stubble upon and sound good. When I first met my mother-in-law she made the most amazing spaghetti ever! and since, I have taken her recipe and added my own touch.So, if you like spaghetti and spicy food here ya go: (Oh, and let me add that I do not measure anything out, I guess!)

Ingredients: *You can cut this in half if you have a smaller family*
Pound of Spaghetti noodles
1-2 pound ground beef
Preggo Three Cheese sauce (1 jar)
Preggo Meat Sauce Flavor (1 jar)
Hot Sauce
Worchestershire Sauce
Italian Seasoning
Garlic Powder
Onion Powder

1. Fry your ground beef up, making sure to grind it into small pieces. The smaller the better, more flavor.
2. Drain the ground beef and place into a skillet.
3. Add Garlic Powder, Onion Powder, Italian Seasoning to you liking ( I prefer more garlic powder in mine). Let simmer for a minute or two.
4. Add Worchesterhire Sauce, and Hot sauce to liking. You do not want extra sauce laying in the pan, so add slowly and let simmer then add more until you reach your liking. (I love mine spicy, the more hot sauce the better)
5. When you have the ground beef and seasoning tasting yummy, add both jars (or half of jars) of Preggo sauces to your skillet and mix with your ground beef. Let heat up.
6. taste your sauce, Add additional seasoning as needed. (Typically I add more hot sauce and garlic powder at this point)
7. Boil your  spaghetti noodles as you normally would. Drain them.
8. Broil Garlic bread if you desire.
9. Grab some plates and forks.
10. ENJOY!


Hope you like this one. I will try to post some more every few days unless I think of some sooner. I love to cook even though i'm not the best at it!

In the TWW now what?!

So, today I am 1dpo. I know most think its too early to have symptoms, but I think they are wrong. I've had cramps and bloating last night through this morning and super tired today. Now, it all could be from the strong O i experienced yesterday, but who really knows? I am trying to stay busy so the days will go by fast but its not working. i feel like its been an eternity since we lost our little one, and its only been two weeks! come on clock! tick tock!!!!

On another note, When I logged on Facebook this morning I found the first post starring back at me is my BFF stating they are expecting baby #3. I was so pissed off,like for real? are you kidding me? I feel like I am being kicked when I'm already down. No one is trying or pregnant all this time, and now that I miscarried everyone is spreading their legs! How Effin shitty is that. I am happy for her, but so pissed off! I told DH if we do not get preggo this month imma steal me a baby! I am kidding of course, but it's a thought!

so, its been a few days...UPDATED

Yup, its been quite a few days. No real news to be honest. I have been busy in the bedroom trying to catch that eggie. Got a positive ovulation test this afternoon and now starting my TWW tomorrow. yippy!!! not, i know this will drag out as long as possible. ugh! come on August, i wanna pee on something! On another note, I am still waiting for my Beta results from thursday. I called and left message for the nurse and will again if she does nto call me by 4 pm. they close at 4:30. I should not have to wait this long for a damn number! my last betas i did not even wait 24 hours!! ugh! I don't know why i am so worried about these numbers, i know i am Oing for a fact, so my betas have to be low or i am crazy. i will update when i get my results!


UPDATE: So ladies (and gents if they are brave enough to read this blog), The nurse called me at 4:06 PM, first off let me say I was fairly upset because they close at 4:30PM and she made me wait ALL day!! My results for my beta from Thursday the 19th was 4. For those of you that do not know what this means, basically its a good thing. Anything below a level 5 is negative, aka not pregnant. You want your numbers to be below 5 after a miscarriage in order to start ovulating again. I knew my numbers were going to be low because my HPT from last week was negative before my beta was drawn, but I needed confirmation. So, that being said, I know I Ovulated for sure today, and we have been mating like wild animals! Tomorrow starts our TWW and I'm so not looking forward to it! I hopefully will be looking forward to beautiful pink lines on August 5th!

TTC vs. World of Warcraft.

Before I go into TTC let me give you a quick run down of my crappy ass wekk so you can see why I have not been posting. First of all, as you know last Tuesday I had my miscarriage and spent the day depressed and in bed. Wednesday came and my bills were due and I didn't do them, just laid around in pain. Thursday came, got paid, and decided it was a great idea to go shopping with my daughter instead of paying my bills on time. I have never done anything like this, but I felt I was more important for once. So After blowing money Friday came, my rent was due and I sent in my check, paid some bills and late fees on top of it, and barely scrapped by paying everything. Ha! I'm good. So, any who, that doesn't sound too bad right? Well I left out that I was had really bad cramps, bleeding through everything I wore, burnt dinner several times, daughter throwing tantrums, mistakenly threw away (yes, THREW away) my wedding bands (expensive, and insurance refuse to cover it), and bleached my dark clothes. I could keep going on, but you get the idea. I just want July to be OVER! Come on August and better luck!



So, Here I am a week and 2 days after my miscarriage and I am completely back to normal (if i ever was normal). My bleeding stopped Sunday and we have been Baby dancing like there is no tomorrow ever since. My Beta on 7/10 was 209, then Beta #2 on 7/12 was 57, then today i had blood drawn for Beta #3. I will let ya'll know when I know! Hoping we are below 5 and these dark OPK I have been getting are true signs of ovulation and not HCG screwing with my head. We are hoping to take advantage of the extra boost in fertility we are suppose to be getting. I use to play World of Warcraft, and ttc somewhat reminds me of it. I use to spend a ton of time fishing, collecting rare items, and leveling character after character. Ugh, i know, you are probably shouting "NERD" by now. So, yes, yes I am a nerd. Anywho, in fishing you can add lures to your fishing pole to increase your chances of getting good crap. Well TTC after a miscarriage is just like that. You get a rare lure to put on your pole until it expires, and HOPE you get what you been fishing for forever! Because Blizzard wants your money, they have to keep you playing, so of course you will NOT get what you want for a long time.
Since we are on the subject of Wow, I want to share a picture with you. Have you ever seen the inside of Wow Convention? Well, if not, you will get a kick out of this. People really do play Thousands of dollars to attend this special event. DirecTV even runs a live broadcast of the convention and gives out special "codes" for in game items to those who purchase the broadcast. I have never been able to get hooked so much that I could dress up like my character!

What about the people that go there to do what they do at home? Sit on their ass, not work, collect welfare and play WoW! (i do know a few of these)

My lord, these people are so geeky! I think I need to buy tickets to the next BlizzCon and do some research! It would be neat to blog about the interesting people I meet during my stay in Cali.
So, in summary TTC is like fishing on Wow. You spend hundreds if not thousands of dollars and will someday get what you've been looking for, but probably not anytime soon!

I will update soon, i promise!

Hi everyone,

It's been awhile, I promise I will update tonight, I didn't realize how many people actually read my blog, and I've been getting hints dropped to me left and right that I need to update, so I will! I am heading to my doctors appt in a few mins to get blood drawn yet again for a beta and when i get home i will tell you all about my long shitty ass week. sound good?! Okay, well see you in a bit!

it's been two days

its been two days and I am not crying anymore, but I still think about my precious angel every second of the day. I have been doing a lot of research about miscarriage and such, and it has helped a ton with the grieving process. I was in such a good mood until a facebook friend of a friend thought it was a good idea to tell me that her Lesbian daughter's girlfriend is pregnant and expecting when I was. I just think that is so selfish of her to tell me that. It's been 2 damn days, do you really think now is the right time? Not to mention I don't even know her damn kids. I know their names, that's it! What the hell is wrong with you woman? Just one word for you, KARMA! On the other hand I was also told that my sister-in-law (whom I do not like to relate myself to) is trying to get pregnant now. We have been at war since I was 30 weeks pregnant with my daughter. She sent me into pre-term labor (that was stopped thank gosh!) and ever since then I have hated her, and always will. Any who, she got knocked up soon after obsessing over my pregnancy, and ended up having her daughter 6 months after mine, now its been 2 years and the day after I announced my pregnancy, she is suddenly trying. I honestly was not jealous because I was already pregnant, but it annoyed me that she was trying to take my spot light. Now that I miscarried, I'm sure she's having a ball with it. I wish I did not have to hear about her ever! I never hated someone so much! Okay, so I think I am done bitching for tonight. I feel better expressing myself!

just a quick update

Who'd a guess the very next day I would have a 180 degree change in my attitude. I am so thankful for my daughter and wonderful hubby2be. They both have helped me bury this hole so I can move on and get back on the TTC train. We will be actively TTC once this m/c passes completely. I am going to try and enjoy the rest of my summer and stay busy. Come September I will be pulling my hair out. After 5 long years we are finally getting married on September 22nd. I am using this as an excuse to stay busy and keep my mind off our loss!

I'm not good with Goodbye...

Been up most of the night because cramps and lower back pain. The spotting has turn to light bleeding, so I know deep down this is it, but i'm still hanging on to that little bit of hope. I broke down and started crying to my fiance because this has been such a long painful road for it to just end like this. What sucks the most is I still have symptoms, mainly morning sickness. I don't want to suffer with sore boobs and puking my guts out for nothing. I already loved this baby as much as I do Ava, and its hard to accept that this may not work out. I'm not good with Goodbyes. I keep telling myself I am so blessed to have Ava and she needs me. I am young yet, there is still plenty of time to try for another.Easier said than done I guess. I'll update after my Drs appt, but don't expect it to be good news.

Spotting

Today at 5w2d I woke up spotting. I have an appt with my obgyn tomorrow at 3 pm to come in for bw and hopefully squeeze me in fro an u/s. the spotting is not bad, i dont need a liner or anything, but i am getting sharp stabbing pains in my uterus. we'll see what tomorrow brings...

5 weeks

Nothing really to update at this point. I am 5 weeks 1 day. I don't see my doctor until July 24th. I am trying to get in as a new patient at a smaller practice, but wont know for sure until tomorrow if they will take me. As far as symptoms, the only thing really bothering me lately is the mild morning sickness I get, and my strong sense of smell. I really really hate that I can smell anything and everything! On the plus side, it gives me hope that Baby Oreo is growing. I hope to hear/see his or her heart beat soon. I can not help but think I have too high of hopes and not see that sweet little flicker on the screen. I am very thankful for no bleeding, and my symptoms keep growing. I am super bloated. Looking very forward to a baby bump and kicks so I know oreo is there! I will be ordering a new fetal Doppler off ebay this week (no idea what I did with Avas). I was able to find Ava's HB at 7 weeks.

5 weeks tomorrow!

So already going on 5 weeks. time is going fast. I am impatient. I really want my u/s already. its killing me not to know if baby has a h/b and is growing! Anywho....i have mild symptoms such as having on and off cramps and constantly hungry, oh and i pee ALL THE TIME.I also can smell everything when i'm not even near anything! My daughter's cabbage patch kid doll drives me insane, i can smell the powder smell form upstairs. I drove 3 hours to spend the weekend with my mother-in-law and had to stop twice to pee. and get munchies! My cravings are: Strawberry short cake Popsicle, tomatoes ( and anything with them), and Arby's curly fries! I am completely avoiding caffeine, and started taking Centrum specialist  prenantal vitamin and DHA gel tab.

Wow, another baby!

So, where to start! I like to rant so I apologize in advance if this gets really long! Okay, so.....We just found out on 6/30/12 that we are expecting Baby Thacker #2. Wow. I still can't wrap my head around it. We were not expecting it at all. I'm not even sure exactly when my LMP was. I think it was June 2nd. Anyways, I had Ava's 2nd Birthday party on 6/23 and felt completely fine, had a GREAT time. The next day I had a few dizzy spells but chocked it up to being my gastric bypass. (for those who do not know, I am 7 months post gastric bypass. I have lost 70 lbs to date). Monday evening I took a preggo test and it was clearly negative so i threw it away and didnt say a word. I kept getting the dizzy spells when i'd stand up or move too fast, again wrote it off as nothing. Ava's actual birthday is 6/28. I had her a big breakfast and gave her my full attention all day. Her daddy took off work Friday 6/29 and we took her to Cunningham Falls in Maryland for swimming, picnicking, and hiking. We had a blast, despite it was 100 degrees F out. We got home around 7 pm, unpacked, took our showers, and I was in bed before 8pm. I thought I was just exhausted from the trip. The next morning I got up early and felt like I was hit by a truck. I was exhausted, my back hurt and I had bad cramps. I checked to see if my period was coming and realized it was due between 6/27 and 6/29, so I thought I'd test one more time just to clear my head, I knew it would be negative. I had two Dollar Store tests left, so what the heck right?! Well boy oh boy I was wrong. At first there was not a line in site, I waited another minute and the faintest of line showed up. I have gotten false alarms before, so I didn't believe it. Dollar Store tests have given me positives when I wasn't really pregnant, but it was just one bad test, never more than one in a row, so I took another the next time I used the bathroom, and again another line. I mentioned it to Caleb, and he felt the way I did, it probably was a bad test and to not get my hopes up. So I went to my brothers birthday party/cook out and spent the day with family, but the whole day I just thought about those two tests. When I left, Ava and I headed to Walmart and bought some First Response 6 day sooner tests. As soon as we got home, I took one, and right away there was a second pink line. I sat there thinking, no way. So I took another. Again positive!!! I was in such disbelief, I started to cry, not a good cry. I was freaking out. Ava is my world, how can I even consider sharing my love with anyone but her! After a few minutes I was able to gather myself and tell Caleb. He still didn't believe it. I texted my future mom-in-law for support. She is always super supportive of us and helps us through anything! She called me ecstatic, I have to admit I was surprised. She was not this excited when we told her about Ava (waited til 8 weeks that time). After an hour call with her I felt confident and got a little excited. When Caleb got off work Ava and I had gotten him a Monster energy drink (his favorite) and put the tests and monster on the table with a big bow wrapped around it. He looked shocked, and I think he thought I was messing with his head. I had to explain to him that it's no joke, We are Pregnant! He does not like to show his emotions but I could tell by his eyes he was excited, and started to ask me questions. After some charting I figured out we are due March 9,2013. I was 3 weeks and 5 days pregnant when I got my first positive test. It's insane how early we can find out these days! I have my first OBGYN appt July 24th and I am meeting with my Gastric Bypass surgeon on July 9th to go over the risks and such. After everything we have been through in the last year, this is amazing news! We are super excited to have our second and most likely final child!